So Christmas is coming, eh?
It's gonna be my first "I am single" Christmas since I was 16, I think. Not that I haven't been single during the last past 9 years, it just happened that I had someone during the holidays. So... It's gonna be weird. But not a bad "weird". Anyways. lol

They decided to stretch my exhibition at Nyk's to the end of january. That's really cool.

Oh! And... lol... You know. I just finished my classical painting classes, my music band is dead, my boyfriend and I broke up,... I decided to buy myself a cat. lol! I was like : "Meh. Fuck this. I'll get myself a cat." I think it's gonna give me some good. Having a little creature feeding you with incondionnal love everyday. Awwww...
And I decided that I'm gonna get the cat I always wanted (expensive, but meh. I don't really care right now). So it's gonna be a Highland Fold. Like this: [link]
They are soooo cool. All puffy-fluffy, big eyes and little fold ears. Awww...

Anyways.

My god...
My life as been such a mess and so boring at the same time for the last past year.
I've been working at the same place for almost a year now and this is pretty much the only place where I've been stable.
I am working very hard to get my brain settled down a bit. I try to be wise, calm and myself as much as possible, but... I always end up in silly situations, innapropriate, not sleep or sleeping too much, and... Yeah. Maybe that's just me. I guess I'm just intense.

LP and I broke up last thursday. (Yeah, that's the dude on the portrait)
It feels weird.
I don't really know what to think about all this.
I have regrets, but I try not to.
I didn't take good care of him, I think.
And we didn't have the same life-rythm at all either.
Still. I am sad about it. Very sad.
I think I was loosing myself in my personnal projects, he became a secondary element in my life, inconsciously.

*sigh*

I guess you are gonna see some more of my state of mind on all of my upcoming paintings.
I'll try not to be THAT depressing.

Cheers.

My portrait projects is going very well so far. I should be able to get my 7 portraits done for may 2010 like I planned.
I am currently working on my 3rd one : [link]
Altho right now I am hiring models for the upcoming ones. I should be able to get some interresting faces. I want to have an equal number of boys and girls (or pretty much equal).

But I am so sad!
I learned that my art school is gonna close, like forever...
Why?! Man... That is so sad... It was the only place where I really wanted to go and it has to shut its doors.
Anyways.
I consider myself lucky to have got the chance to go there. Even just a couple of months.

I believe I do know what I want. Thing is I have some weird chains that keep me where I am. And again, I have created these chains. I know I have the power to break them. But... Myeah. Anyways.

I am going to feature in an art/culture blog from here (Quebec). I'm so happy about that! They recently added a "gallery" section and they add one or two portfolios of an artist every month. And yup yup yup! They picked me for their next featuring artist. Woohoo!

I can't wait to move from this appartment. Ugh! This one is so small and so crappy!
Well... it's not THAT crappy, but I certainly could get something better.
But this is only gonna happen in july when my lease is gonna be over. Can't wait.

I have to poop this huge painting before december and I have no idea what to do. I do have inspiration, but... I don't seem to know how to spit it on this canva.

I'm pretty happy with what happened.

I just sold two paintings ("The Message" and "Cafeine, Nicotine and Pigeons") and that helped me paying my painting classes. Actually, I also sold "Angel Dog" but I have to wait before giving it away. I have to poop a new painting and the only canva I have is pretty freaking huge. 36X48 or something. And plus I don't know yet what I'm gonna paint.

I always doodle on my scrapbook and I don't often get something I find interesting enough to make a huge painting out of it.

I still see my psy and... I kinda got depressed recently. Like if I'm realising more and more that I'm not where I want to be. And I know I'm the only one to blame for that. I really have to find out what I should do to be a happier person and just DO IT, ya know?

Anyways...