I've been feeling kinda depressed since yesterday. I've been doing good for two weeks or something and yesterday BANG! back to the ill brain. I'm really exhausted of not feeling well, seriously. Sometimes I get the feeling a cancer is gonna grow out of that constant stress/sadness I have in me. That sounds kinda emo, doesn't it? Ugh... Anyways. I have my good reasons. I must say that I haven't felt that bad for years. And it all started in last november. Half a year of bad mental health. That's... That's bad. Really.

I have a terrible feeling like I've failed.
I never had regrets before. I always fought against that.
But now, I...

*sigh*

I feel terrible.